Child of Woe, Child of Sorrow

I was born through the sin of my mother and father. I was continually reminded of this through my tender years as a child. When your own dad tells you that you're the worthless product of a male hooker, that you're not pretty or smart enough to be of his blood, you hang your head in shame. I was humiliated by the piercing stares I got from those he informed of this. I was exposed to witchcraft. My mother was an alcoholic, and my dad had extramarital affairs with numerous women. As a child, I was also the victim of sexual assault. At the age of ten, my life took a turn for the better. My mother bore twin babies. Because she rejected the boy child, I was taught how to care for him. For the first time in my life someone showed me love, and I loved him back. I had never felt love before then. If my mom and dad did love me, they never showed it. My baby brother was two when he died. I watched as my mother murdered him. His life had given me joy, and now he was gone. I stopped communicating. Between this, my deformities, and my learning disability, I became a victim to all who knew me. I was commonly called retarded by teachers, students, and my own father. Even strangers on the street would call me names. This led me to become an unstable adult. As a woman, my life was a mess. I had no idea how to show love, or even what it felt like. Therefore, I damaged every relationship I had. Then I met Jesus. He taught me agape love. I learned to love like Jesus does. The Holy Ghost set me free of over a thousand demons. In every way, He set me free. I am living proof that our God reigns, that He can take the most corrupted mess and create something of beauty. In my soul, I was an ugly duckling, but Jesus made me into a beautiful swan. What the Lord has done for me, He can do for you. About the Author: Patricia Loranger, formerly Pattie Campbell, has successfully served and loved the Lord for over twenty-seven years, having received Christ as her Lord in August 1984, in the lovely yet humble Pentecostal Church of Ingersoll, Ontario. She has made her home in this pretty little town with Maurice, her husband of thirty-years, and two precious little dogs, Liesa and Sweet Pea.